So kid, what’s the eternal price of happiness? Here comes the end of yet another day and still caught, spellbound by some darker magic you have yet not come to understand. All so velvety dark, all so deep, buried in my mind, our collective mind, feeding my dreams, catching a glimpse of your fears. But still in every corner you look back, waiting for the world to end, but it doesn’t, so you keep up the masquerade. Why keep on falling, why keep on dreaming? For the empty coil of life to hang around your neck? So, tell me kid, what’s the price of happiness? Maybe it is loneliness. Cause the years will pass us by, but we will live forever. Cause love is not about change, love is not about climbing down of a cloud, at least not for us. Love is lifting us higher and higher until we fall with grace, beauty, and death.
Cause life maybe all cats in the cradle, or maybe all a ring of fire. And maybe the only company you’ll ever need is yourself. And maybe you are not made to mate, maybe only the silver moon, maybe only you and the world. Or maybe you need to first discover the world and who you are, maybe you need time to mate yourself and me. Maybe you just need to go so so far away. Away from it all. Just go find cats in the cradle, just go and find your north. The world will be still here tomorrow, and if not, well, at least die with a smile and say you enjoyed the ride.
And I am mine, I am yours, you are mine, you and I are one, and we can take all over. And nothing and no one can demand a thing from us. And if forever you want to life your life in a cloud, and you want to be the freak, and you want to be the loser, then be it, and be proud. Cause it is you, it is me, it is all. And it is ok if you don’t want to fight their wars, or play their silly games. It is ok to live in another reality. It is ok to be you. And you can change, and tomorrow go back to your old self. You are free. This world can’t control you. You are free. And yes, you can experiment, but don’t wait to long. You are not twenty yet, but you’ll get there soon. And there is so much to live for, so much to see. Don’t let your spirit be broken now. And it is ok if you just want to sit by the side of the road and watch the cars roll by. And I am innocent, and I am corrupted. I am both alive and dead. And God, I want to breathe,. I want to get lost, so I can find my self. Cause I make mistakes all the time, but I love them, and I love myself, and I am human, and I want to fail, and I want to succeed, and I want to find my joy, and I want to see snow, mountains, the cold cold sea. I want to get lost in a sea of languages I can’t comprehend. And I don’t need anything, anyone, I just need me… to find myself, and travel the world with me. Cause I suck for human relationships, and I suck for loving in a compromising way. All love should be free, all love should be loved and set free, and sent to fly so high and so far away. All should be free.
And what the fuck is significance, and what is the meaning, but ourselves? Why can’t we be free? I know I was born, and I know that I’ll die, and I don’t know what the fuck am I gonna do with what’s in between, but you know, I don’t care. It might be the end of everything but I feel fine. I don’t know, I don’t care. I just want to live, to step down from the routine, to live, to fuck, to die. And you know, I don’t care if I am wasting your so called precious air. And I don’t care if I am one more from the bunch. Cause I am nuts, cause I feel fine, cause I didn’t ask to live, but I am alive, and what the fuck if I die? Hell, this world is not as good as one may think, it is not half as good as it should be, but it is good enough for an hour or two. So what the hell, close my eyes and I’ll feel better. And god, if you don’t like it, well, I’m sorry, but this is who I am.
